What if I won't come home anymore?
Things are starting to get a little... a little too complicated I guess. The are people I want to meet but when I meet them I wish I wouldn't be there. Because my friends "can't" come to meet me (because it costs "too much"), I must go home (and the truth is that I'm the poor one who uses her own money to buy food, train tickets, study books and rent). And when I'm at home, it seems like I have this obligation to meet those people, be social, be an extrovert. I'm an introvert. I may like to be with people, but it's really hard to me. I get so tired and the only part of the week I can really use to recharge my batteries is the weekend. Fine settimana.
I never promised I would stay in touch with people. I don't like to promise anything. Every time someone says "You promised!" I answer: "I said." So what if I wouldn't be in touch with those old friends anymore? Maybe I could be in touch with one person only so people would still know I'm alive.
Seems like things I talk about aren't the same anymore. Or maybe my hometown mates have changed. I haven't had any fights yet. But I'm a bit afraid that I will. I get so angry sometimes...
I really don't know who to trust. I guess no one is a good answer. My hometown is a town full of gossips. Now when I'm away, I'd rather be forgotten than a subject.
I really do love my hometown but... I have learned that if a relationship doesn't work, there's nothing you can do. Just quit it and let it be.
Things are starting to get a little... a little too complicated I guess. The are people I want to meet but when I meet them I wish I wouldn't be there. Because my friends "can't" come to meet me (because it costs "too much"), I must go home (and the truth is that I'm the poor one who uses her own money to buy food, train tickets, study books and rent). And when I'm at home, it seems like I have this obligation to meet those people, be social, be an extrovert. I'm an introvert. I may like to be with people, but it's really hard to me. I get so tired and the only part of the week I can really use to recharge my batteries is the weekend. Fine settimana.
I never promised I would stay in touch with people. I don't like to promise anything. Every time someone says "You promised!" I answer: "I said." So what if I wouldn't be in touch with those old friends anymore? Maybe I could be in touch with one person only so people would still know I'm alive.
Seems like things I talk about aren't the same anymore. Or maybe my hometown mates have changed. I haven't had any fights yet. But I'm a bit afraid that I will. I get so angry sometimes...
I really don't know who to trust. I guess no one is a good answer. My hometown is a town full of gossips. Now when I'm away, I'd rather be forgotten than a subject.
I really do love my hometown but... I have learned that if a relationship doesn't work, there's nothing you can do. Just quit it and let it be.
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